Marilyn Monroe said "I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
It got me thinking. I have had some crushes on guys over the years and they never amount to much. Sometimes less than nothing. Then today I was talking to Derek and Ed came up. Ed is this guy I've had a crush on for years. As Derek and I talked I realized not only do I NOT wanna date Ed, he's not my type.
Someone who goes to parties, premieres, club openings, events, etc. That's not me. Someone who has all this "stuff" going on. NO! I want someone laid back. Someone that can take a day and relax. All this time I thought I wasn't his type...when in fact he wasn't mine. And I can look to alot of my crushes and say that. Physically I'm attracted but personality...not so much.
When I cycle back through my four exes Bruce was the closest to my type I had. Tim was ok. Josh was judgmental and boring. Ben was a caterer. Bruce was laidback and down to earth. Sure he was batshit crazy when it came to his sexuality, but at least he and I had a good relationship. I can't say the what if with him cuz I think he's just not the type of settle down. He will for a few years, but eventually he'd wander.
There are some truly funny/wonderful moments in my life that have nothing to do with rubbing elbows with people at CC or being at an "It boy's" party. Don't get me wrong I love CC, but 2011 David is going to spend more time making real moments with people OR letting them go.
Why waste time wondering what could've been when I could be making plans on what's gonna happen next week?
So I'm giving up about 95% of my crushes :) Yup I said it. AND!?