So I had training all week in Dorchester with Stephanie and Alex. We learned Small Business sales pitches. Oh and Carson was there. Hanging out with Alex reaffirmed that he and I are friends. But it also deflated my crush on him. A) He's 100% the most heterosexual man I've met like ever. B) he's a friend. I don't crush on friends. It got me thinking about the difference between crushing and liking and how like drama and disagreements people often confuse the two.
Crushes are meant to be harmless and a fantasized reality of a person. They are also meant to be on people you KNOW you do not have a chance with. Matt Damon. He's been my crush since the shower scene in "School Ties." He's straight married with four kids and living in FL...oh AND a movie star. Clearly this will never happen.
Liking is when you see yourself dating someone or going on a date with them. There is a general interest and you feel there is a "chance" at least. I like Ben for instance and he likes me. Now I don't LIKE too many people but I crush alot. No harm.
I wish to GOD people would stop confusing the two. If they wanna confuse the two with themselves that's fine, but not with me. Recently this guy tried calling me out telling me I need to stop living in a fantasy world blah blah blah. Relationship advice from someone striking out in love is the worst. I wanna tell him to eff off cuz he's not a subject matter, but at the same time it's his opinion. I just finally politely told him it's his opinion.
Fact of the matter Alex knows my stance on crushes and liking. My other crushes do too. The only problem was this guy. It just irks me when people try telling you their opinions. I never understood why. Do they think we will just say "OH MY GOD you're right. Thanks!" Like what do they gain out of the deal?
Anyways recently I'm being crushed on by either 18 year olds or 50-60 year olds. I WISH I were joking.
Complicated by Rihanna
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jOfpUrvpdug
This song perfectly describes my relationship with Bruce! Wow Rihanna Wow!
This song perfectly describes my relationship with Bruce! Wow Rihanna Wow!
the one about being a hypocrite
So I emailed Ben yesterday about the whereabouts of my laptop which turned into his apology. My gut reaction oddly enough is to forgive him. Here's why. I've said and done some nasty horrible things to other people in the past. People like my best friend Larry. He and I have gone toe to toe and you know what years later we are closer than ever. My mom is another perfect example. Unforgivable things that have been forgiven. How can I not forgive Ben especially when I know WHY he said it...he misunderstood. He even admitted he misunderstood and that it was a "low blow" to bring up things I told him in confidence and use it against me.
I still think he has room to grow. He does have a problem telling the whole truth, but I think he feels because he has very few friends he needs to "fib" in order to have someone in his corner. I remember the other day staring at him. In his eyes. And I didn't see evil. I didn't see blackness. I saw brown eyes. For the longest time I thought his eyes were dark brown/black. But they are brown. That image of the other day still is embedded in my brain. I wish I could explain why I'm so drawn to him. I just feel like if I don't give him the chances my mom and friend Larry have given me I will be a hypocrite.
I still think he has room to grow. He does have a problem telling the whole truth, but I think he feels because he has very few friends he needs to "fib" in order to have someone in his corner. I remember the other day staring at him. In his eyes. And I didn't see evil. I didn't see blackness. I saw brown eyes. For the longest time I thought his eyes were dark brown/black. But they are brown. That image of the other day still is embedded in my brain. I wish I could explain why I'm so drawn to him. I just feel like if I don't give him the chances my mom and friend Larry have given me I will be a hypocrite.
The Fighter
Wow. What a great movie. It was great cuz of the story and the cast...except Mark Wahlberg. I'm sorry but this story was too juicy and real to put in his hands.
The story is about two brothers Dicky (Christian Bale) and Micky. Dicky is a former boxer who KO'd Sugar Ray Leonard but his life went downhill when he couldn't get any more fights and turned to drugs. He has been trying to coach his younger brother Dicky (Mark Wahlberg). Of course it's a Cinderella story and you know how it's gonna end, but why Mark Wahlberg? Christian Bale WILL win an Academy Award if not for shedding MASSIVE pounds for his fast talking portrayal of a crack addict former boxer. When Bale was delivering his lines it was like he was speaking...compared to Wahlberg whom was clearly ACTING! Therein lies the difference.
And lemme tell you Amy Adams and Melissa Leo KICKED BUTT TOO! Amy could very well beat Hilary Swank in the Best Actress category...why? Hilary is an odds on fave. But Amy portrayed a tough talking, lil clothing wearing, girl from the streets. She broke a girl's nose who called her a whore. I was STUNNED! WOW! I did feel there were times she was acting but mostly it was her in character. Melissa Leo ROCKED it. She never once acted. She was the female version of Christian Bale. I BELIEVED this woman was his mother. Was an enabler. And really did smoke cigarettes with that awful hairdo. If she doesn't get nominated I will boycott the Oscars!
I do know if it's a feel good enough movie though for Oscar consideration. It didn't make me well up like "Conviction" but it did wow me! Christian and Melissa...good luck!!!!!!!
the one about the best date of my life
So last night I went on an impromptu date. This guy's name is Joe. Joe and I met last minute when I got tickets to see "The Fighter" at literally 2pm (for a 7pm show). So we met at the movie after talking for a couple days. WOW! Clicked right away.
Then after the movie we ate at McCormick & Schmick's for Social Hour menu! Seriously! I couldn't believe how well we clicked considering how unwell Ben and I and Bruce and I faired. Even Josh and I.
Of course there's a hitch to the best date of my life...he's moving to London end of the month. Some people would say stop don't fall too deep. And I'm not, but I deserve to be doted on. To be treated good. So I'm gonna continue hanging out with him till he leaves. It's not like anyone else is beating down my door anyways. But yeah. In the words of my friend Kerry...F*ck my tits. SIGH
Then after the movie we ate at McCormick & Schmick's for Social Hour menu! Seriously! I couldn't believe how well we clicked considering how unwell Ben and I and Bruce and I faired. Even Josh and I.
Of course there's a hitch to the best date of my life...he's moving to London end of the month. Some people would say stop don't fall too deep. And I'm not, but I deserve to be doted on. To be treated good. So I'm gonna continue hanging out with him till he leaves. It's not like anyone else is beating down my door anyways. But yeah. In the words of my friend Kerry...F*ck my tits. SIGH
the one about my hothead roommate
So my roommate is hilarious. Aside from his sayings "Well if the pot fits the kettle." Whenever he relaxes his folds his hands like he's praying even sleep, and my absolute favorite is his fits of rage. Usually by the end he's like "Wow I probably shouldn't have said that huh?" Tonight was my landlord.
My roommate was right though. My landlord tries to eek things by us or force us into last minute meetings. And I do not like when he comes into our apt when we aren't there yet I get an email "hey David and Chris, we need to access your apt." UGH! Call, text. Oh Chris wasn't having it. He got on the phone, yelled at our landlord's voicemail, and threatened to get a lawyer involved. "Um Chris, I think our landlord is gonna raise our rent to include heat/gas and electricity" Chris "Oh you're probably right. Hmm I probably shouldn't have yelled and insinuated I wanted to get a lawyer involved huh?" Me "I mean I don't think that was at the best idea. But I see where you were coming from." HILARIOUS! And I love how he gives me this look like a kid gives when they broke mom and dad's favorite vase. He cracks me up seriously!
My roommate was right though. My landlord tries to eek things by us or force us into last minute meetings. And I do not like when he comes into our apt when we aren't there yet I get an email "hey David and Chris, we need to access your apt." UGH! Call, text. Oh Chris wasn't having it. He got on the phone, yelled at our landlord's voicemail, and threatened to get a lawyer involved. "Um Chris, I think our landlord is gonna raise our rent to include heat/gas and electricity" Chris "Oh you're probably right. Hmm I probably shouldn't have yelled and insinuated I wanted to get a lawyer involved huh?" Me "I mean I don't think that was at the best idea. But I see where you were coming from." HILARIOUS! And I love how he gives me this look like a kid gives when they broke mom and dad's favorite vase. He cracks me up seriously!
the one about bullying
So what really burns my cookies are bullies. Bullies are people that go out of their way to make people uncomfortable and say malicious things.
I was talking to someone about this as this guy who was online just ripped into this kid for no apparent reason. He's CONSTANTLY doing this to people too. I had a side convo and this person after seeing me at CC ONCE for a total of about 16 mins says "What's the difference between you talking about someone at a club and this guy supposedly bullying this kid?" EXCUSE ME? Are you kidding me? I like everyone else in that establishment mock others AS MUCH as I mock myself. I am the first to say "Girl look at my gut I feel like I'm pregnant" as easily as I say "Does that one have a reflective surface at home." Bullying is telling someone they are worthless stupid and you want them to "enjoy their demise." I was offended and insulted anyone much less someone I don't even know to try and lump me in with those jerks to oversimplify a point. What's worse? This person laughed along with everyone else at every joke/jab I told.
Why on earth do I try to branch out from my circle? Chuck, JB, Kelly, Tara, Ken. These people know and love me unconditionally. They get me and my humor. Most importantly they are just like me. Why do I try and befriend anyone else outside of them? Acquaintances is different from befriending. I need to learn this lesson.
I was talking to someone about this as this guy who was online just ripped into this kid for no apparent reason. He's CONSTANTLY doing this to people too. I had a side convo and this person after seeing me at CC ONCE for a total of about 16 mins says "What's the difference between you talking about someone at a club and this guy supposedly bullying this kid?" EXCUSE ME? Are you kidding me? I like everyone else in that establishment mock others AS MUCH as I mock myself. I am the first to say "Girl look at my gut I feel like I'm pregnant" as easily as I say "Does that one have a reflective surface at home." Bullying is telling someone they are worthless stupid and you want them to "enjoy their demise." I was offended and insulted anyone much less someone I don't even know to try and lump me in with those jerks to oversimplify a point. What's worse? This person laughed along with everyone else at every joke/jab I told.
Why on earth do I try to branch out from my circle? Chuck, JB, Kelly, Tara, Ken. These people know and love me unconditionally. They get me and my humor. Most importantly they are just like me. Why do I try and befriend anyone else outside of them? Acquaintances is different from befriending. I need to learn this lesson.
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