the one about Monarch Butteflies and Dragonflies...and one hummingbird

So I just spent from Friday night till Sunday afternoon in Holderness, NH on Squam Lake at Alice's parents house. It's a small cabin that sleeps about 8 and probably more but it's just so quaint and quiet. It was myself, Alice, her husband Tyler, her godbrother Ben, and her parents. SO RELAXING!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Well Ben and I drove up Friday night. Saturday Tyler went to work and it was Alice, Ben, and I. We went on her boat. First I made a new lil brother out of Ben who's 20 and 6-4 haha Well from the moment I went on the dock to read at 7am to the moment we got back  from the boat ride at 4 to greet Tyler and her parents (her mom is a Justice of the Peace whom was officiating a wedding) Monarch Butterflies and Dragonflies were surrounding me. LITERALLY! Sitting on the dock a huge dragonfly hovered in front of me. Of course I swatted it away thinking it was gonna sting me (they don't stink). And the butterflies were all over trying to land on me. And then on the boat the dragonflies were everywhere. Even on Sunday as I was leaving. One dragonfly sat right by me and didn't move an inch. Also a hummingbird was buzzing around.

I got home and looked it up:

The butterfly is a reminder to make changes when the opportunity arises. Change and transformation are inevitable for us all, but it does not have to be traumatic. Butterfly symbolism is also closely tied to the idea of spirits and souls. It has been used in many religions and cultures. In the western world, the symbol of the butterfly stands for freedom, fun and joyous times. It is also symbolizes a state of naturalness and purity.

The traditional association of Dragonflies with water also gives rise to this meaning to this amazing insect. The Dragonfly’s scurrying flight across water represents an act of going beyond what’s on the surface and looking into the deeper implications and aspects of life. 
In Native American culture, a hummingbird symbolizes timless joy and the Nectar of Life. It's a symbol for accomplishing that which seems impossible and will teach you how to find the miracle of joyful living from your own life circumstances.


Um WOW!  Now I feel bad for swatting that dragonfly away that was hovering in front of me.  Thing is these creatures NEVER featured themselves my first couple of times. Just thought it was strange that I had fully revised my book AND had everything in place then the universe sent these creatures to tell me things are gonna get better :)

the one about dreaming about licorice

So the old wise tale says if you dream about eating Licorice it means you are longing for your childhood again. Which totally makes sense cuz licorice is what EVERY kid wants right?

Well lately I've been revisiting mine via cartoon. I was watching Robotech and Voltron.

Robotech is an 80s cartoon detailing 3 alien invasions to Earth. The first season was AMAZEBALLZ USA. There's a love triangle between pilot Rick, singer Lynn Minmei, and flight controller Lisa. It's so amazing you dont' realize you're watching 36 episodes. Then the second season changes it all. All new cast and storyline. I didn't connect and stopped watching. Didn't make it to third season. It's pretty violent too which is weird that I didn't notice it as a kid.

Voltron is AMAH-ZING! I heart love j'adore it. It's about 5 robot lions that form Voltron Defender of the Universe. Voltron is a robot that has a multitude of weapons and a blazing sword he creates from smashing his lion hands together. SERIOUSLY the most violent, best written cartoon of the 80s. People die. Robots are desicrated and there's a slight love story. Also oddly enough first time a twin cousin was introduced haha.

Already watched entire series of Jem like 3 times. Next up is Thundarr the Barbarian and Herculoids. Oh and Beverly Hills Teens! Cannot wait.

I think it's a good thing to revisit happy memories of your childhood as an adult. keeps you remembering it wasn't all bad. :)

the one where I remember the good

So Julia Roberts has this line in "Pretty Woman" that she says to Richard Gere "Ever notice how the bad stuff is easier to remember than the good?"

I spent two nights this week up till 4am editing my book (I added 100 more pages and revised the original). Alot of my life is IN the book, but not enough that it's exact. But some stuff got in there and it made me think of the good stuff.

Woke up today nostalgic about my life. Yes the bad stuff was bad (and everyone has it), but I have SO MANY great memories.

School: I was teased by like FIVE people, but it wasn't EVERYONE! I am still talk to alot of my high school friends on a regular basis. These are peeps I've known since I was in 4th grade!!!!

Friends: I grew up in this place called Pheasant Hill Village. Picture townhouses on top of each other. A basketball court. A playground. A swimming pool. Grass was mowed. Apts maintained on inside. And there were kids my age there so we all hung out and played together. The majority of these kids are still my friend today. And it all started on September 1, 1985 at a rubber band fight outside hahaha I walked right up. Said hi. And got shot in the head with a rubber band by my friend Jose! haha To this day I have around me new friends that I adore.

These people and this experienced shaped me as a person. I cannot believe how fortunate I was to experience it :)
 

the one about marketing vs. truth

So I have come to realize there's a fine line between marketing my book and getting personal. 

Last week I hit the ground running. Going into independent bookstores talking about displaying my book, emailing and tweeting about my book. I even paid for an ad on Facebook which has so far done great. But I feel like an exposed nerve. Read this:





This is not about marketing. I created this out of desperation for my situation. Then why do I feel exposed? I guess I have always tried to keep and restrict my personal life to my small select circle of friends. But in many regards I see this petition as my ticket out. I don't care about selling millions. That's for another strategy. This is immediate to get me out of where I am. And I hate being that person that does that. I literally paced for ten minutes after posting that. I still don't know how I feel. But if I am asking for help like Larry said then I should be honest why I need it.

Let's hope this situation resolves itself sooner rather than later!

the one about winning

So I've been very focused on what my dreams and goals are lately. One major goal is getting my book sold. I want it to sell millions. In the past 24 hours I have pimped this book like you wouldn't believe...with Larry's help. I've honestly never worked so hard on something. We were blast emailing, posting, and tweeting for 4 hours. I didn't go to bed till 2am!

I know I should be content with writing and publishing the book. But I'm not. I want it to be a huge success. I wanna stop working my 9-5 and start on my career in film/TV like yesterday!

(prays)

I did get it up and running on iBookstore...IN EUROPE AND FRANCE! Ugh what a letdown. It's also on the Nook. Then I went and sent my press release to a TON O magazine and book editors. GRRR something better happen soon hehe

The Dark Knight Rises

Despite the CO tragedy my brother-in-law and I went to see this. One word: epic!

I sat down and watched "Batman Begins" and "The Dark Knight." This movie accompanying this really made its mark. Yes it's a combo of the two...it's even Batman Begins in reverse, but still the movie works on so many levels.

Once again I have to eat my words...Anne Hathaway was incredible. Why? Because she wasn't CATWOMAN (in fact they never call her that throughout the movie) she was Selina Kyle a cat burglar. I believed Anne as Selina. Catwoman aka Michelle Pfeiffer cannot be redone. She was an amazing Catwoman and I loved loved loved her in the role. Thankfully that wasn't Anne's play. There wasn't a cat in sight either.

Being a closet cartoon geek the movie was a combo of Batman the Animated Series and the Comic. I remember a specific scene in the comic that nerds will LOVE seeing (shhhh). But overall loved the movie, will buy it when it comes out.

At almost three hours long the only time it dragged was the last half hour. That's when I realized my butt was falling asleep will this end? Some plot twists and turns, but if you haven't seen the first two I implore you to do so. They all tie in together and it makes much more sense. Definitely worth seeing on the big screen...despite your fears.

In Time

This is one movie I thought was STUPID! I did not go to see it in theaters, and was reluctant to watch it on DVD. Joked this shoulda been called JUST-In Time...and I was wrong!

This movie was innovative and fun! This is a world in which money is no longer existing...its time. Time on yoru life. Numbers on your arm tell you how much time you have left. The average person is born with 25 years. Once you reach 25 either your clock stops OR you can borrow from others. Even gambling is with time.

Rent this one if you like action/drama/romance. The love story is small but good. Whatever plot holes I'm not putting my shovel to dig that deep. I like the movie and the concept and it even made over $100m worldwide :)

This Means War

I'll be honest I didn not wanna watch this. A movie about two spy best friends whom happen to fall for the same girl then practically destroy each other fighting over her? I'm all about bros before hos, or chicks before d*cks so I was turned off.

Then I decided "this is a comedy relax." So I watched it and enjoyed seeing these two guys fight over her. It was good and has a "bow" ending. Personally I feel she made the wrong choice, but I get it.

Worth seeing but don't expect HUGE surprises. Chelsea Handler was hilarious!

David's Birthday

Yes I know subtitles are bad. You wanna go to a movie and watch not read, but coming from a lover of movies (subtitles are not) this was one of my favorite...mostly because it was SO tragic!

The story is about David's parents Diego and Shari (whom have a strange Kourtney Kardashian/Scott Disick type relationship) taking holiday (that's what Europeans call vacationing) in Italy. They ask their married friends Matteo and Francesca to join. While there Shari's brother Leonard visits as well as David, whom is a US model/college student.

The crux of the movie is that Matteo's gradual romantic feelings for David. They set it up perfectly as Matteo isn't gay nor has he seen David in MANY years, but when he does there's an explosion that occurs of emotion, tragedy, and not even necessarily romance.

Of all the remakes Hollywood has done this would be an amazing one to do. Here's hoping they smarten up :)

Madea's Witness Protection

Typically I dislike the genre of "black comedy" because it's too stereotypical especially Madea. I did see Madea Goes to Jail and hated it. But loved her character in "I Can Do Bad All By Myself" ALOT! She was funny and tough on people that needed it. The same goes for this movie.

The premise is DA Brian (Tyler Perry) who's Joe's son (Madea's brother also played by Tyler Perry) needs a place to store his witness pre-trial and what better place than with his Aunt Madea? My favorite line is from the trailer...Boy (wakes up staring at Madea): You look like a giant bag of skittles. Madea: Well if you don't move yo butt off this couch you gonna taste the rainbow!

Love quick wit and humor. Clearly this line was set up cuz she wasn't colorfully dressed, but that's something I myself would say to someone if they called me Skittles haha The storyline, acting, and production values made this one black comedy I love :)

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