Morning Glory

So this is the movie starring Rachel McAdams as a TV News Producer who gets a "promotion" to Executive Producer of DayBreak...a bottom of the barrel morning news show. Diane Keaton is the regular anchor and Harrison Ford is the cranky legit newsjournalist that joins.

Is the movie predictable? Yes you know how it's going to end and whom is going to end up with whom. But the fun part is how they arrive there. That's the atypical part.

I will buy this movie on DVD when it comes out. This was a smart movie where you aren't screaming at the screen "OH COME ON!" or "SAY SOMETHING!" Rachel does everything right.

Sideline...holy awkward sauce. I show up alone and content. GUESS who's there? Yup! Cray cray Ben. But he's not there with Ed whom was my date till he stalked him. No he's there with ANOTHER guy. So basically he ended anything with Ed (dating or friendship) for nothing because now he's dating some OTHER black guy. He won't be happy till he's dated all the black men in the greater Boston area I'm convinced.

Thankfully he didn't see me. I slipped out RULL RULL quick. I called my mom immediately she's like "You need to be done with him." And I am. Like Mariah said SHAKE IT OFF!

the one about my new straight boyfriend

Yup it's happened. Since my current straight boyfriend ignores me and never spends time with me I got a new one. His name is Alex. He doesn't know he's my straight boyfriend cuz it'll confuse him LOL If my friends met him they would say he's perfect for me. 6 ft. Brown hair. A cross between Keanu Reeves and Sean Penn. And yes he's dumb lol Ok not DUMB but airheaded. He's in my training class the next three days. Example you ask?
Instructor: We are going to break up into pairs.
Alex: Pears?
Me: Not the fruit, Alex. Teams of two.
Alex: Oh.
The best part about him he KNOWS he's funny. Like I'm not making fun of him. He truly knows he's this way. And one day and we bonded. I could see myself being friends with him.

Now Justin, don't get jealous. You are number one. But since you moved you are my VT straight boyfriend. Can't wait to see you in January my heart hehe xoxo

Well that's all for now. Hope all is well.

Due Date

I really enjoyed this movie. It was "The Hangover" meets "Road Trip." It almost felt like Zach is playing the same character. They dress the same. They have the same quirkness. Only difference is this guy has a dog. Overall not bad. Just won't be buying this one on dvd.

Oprah 200 men

I don't know if Oprah has ever done a show like this. On Friday she had an audience of 200 men with pictures of themselves at the age they were molested. WOW! Some of these men didn't ever talk about this with anyone. Can you believe 30 year old identical twins were even molested? They were in 3rd grade when a priest began molesting them for 13 years. They had to endure watching each other be molested. And even sodomized with a candle. The worst was forcing them to sodomize each other...repeatedly. And eventually other priests joined in and they were gang raped. HOW? I can't even imagine! OK CRYING NOW!!!


Fortunately I was never molested. I was physically abused with hitting and verbally abused, but sexually thank god. I don't know how I could've handled that. But I do know I was very conscious of this from being physically and emotionally abused: DO NOT LET THEM WIN! How will they have won? By me being a failure. By me saying I can't have this or that because I was abused. For me being not achieving something and saying "Oh I was abused I can't do this or that." I am a SURVIVOR which means just like a cancer survivor or alcoholic I have to fight everyday to maintain normality.


Amazing show. Of course I was sad to know 1 out of 6 men are sexually molested and half of them by more than one abuser. Some of the women and girlfriends and boyfriends are there and OMG it's so sad. What would possess you to do that? Weren't we taught as kids to not take what isn't ours? 


No one knows this but one day I was babysitting my nephew Dietrich. I'm a VERY strict babysitter anyone will tell you. You go to be at 800. Not 759 not 801. 800! Well he wasn't happy I put him to bed and cried. As I checked in on him and saw him sleeping. I stared at him thinking:


Whom would wanna hurt him?
Whom could even THINK he's sexually attractive?
Why would anyone wanna hurt him?


I didn't mean to but I kissed him on the forehead and hugged him. He woke up for a second and went back to sleep. I closed the door and cried. I just felt terrible that in the time it took me to hug and kiss him some little boy was being molested. That was the last time I babysat him before I moved in 2006. UGH I just wanna protect him. I don't want anyone to ever hurt him. He's such a trusting kid. 

Today I look at guys in their 20s and I'm like ugh. I think guys younger than 25 or too young for me. I guess I wish I could understand the rationale for pedophiles. I understand they are sick and broken but they need help. They don't need my pity or sorrow they need HELP!  There are few things in this world that are black and white right or wrong THIS is wrong!!!!!!!!!


For anyone who has ever been molested it's better to talk about it than hold it in. If you even need to shoot me an email please do so. I will not judge. And if you don't want to talk to me talk to someone! Someone will care. Please visit http://www.menthriving.org as well.

the one about gay teens and churches

I was talking to a coworker today and had a brilliant thought. Since most churches are more accepting of gays why don't they put together a program for gay teen counseling. Not conversion, but someone for gay teens to talk to whether it be other teens, adults, or preferably other gay teens or adults. With the bad connotation churches have gotten over the years I think this would be a wonderful way to "give back" especially like I said if the churches are accepting.

For me the one thing I miss about my friendship with Jamie is the honesty. We told each other ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING! There was no topic off limits, but there was also nothing that shocked each other. I know things about her I will take to my grave. But had I not had her I dunno whom I woulda talked to. That's why I think it's important for a teen who's gay with parents or a family not accepting to have someone to vent to. Jamie was a teen herself so to have her sit there and listen to me bitch day in and out was amazing. But she shouldn't have had to bear that burden. I shoulda felt comfortable enough going to an adult.

Anyways that's just my thought on the subject. Now off to hanging out with my bestie for Friday night Vampire Diaries and gorging.

ps. Even though Jamie and I aren't speaking I actually just sent her a Facebook message thanking her. I think this blog is helping me think about things ALOT that I never even thought about before :)

model Chris Nogiec

So this is my baby daddy Chris Nogiec that I left Matt Damon for. Hello how much more perfect right? Blond hair, blue eyes. Muscles...here's the kicker: He's a nice guy.

He and I have been online friends since like 1999 FRIENDSTER! Remember Friendster? LOL Yeah we met there, and he lived in Boston, moved to LA, then moved back to Boston. We've never met in person, but yes it has been really him. But I just wanted to highlight an actual positive gay role model. Oops hope I didn't out him. But he's just pretty consistently nice. One of these days we'll meet, fall in love instant, and have 10000 babies. hahaha  

But yeah this is my crush and now you know the backstory. Click on his name to go to his website. He's also a personal trainer!

the one about Heather

So today woulda been her 27th birthday! I thought about her all day. UGH! I wonder where she woulda been in her life? It's funny I heard this song today "Fancy" by my other celeb hubby Drake (I have alot of celeb husbands don't judge me). And I kept thinking "Heather, would TOTALLY love this song." All day I was like "Oh Heather woulda laughed at this." Or Heather woulda liked this TV show or movie.

Ashley and I talked yesterday, and we both said how we are hiding from people. I'm trying not to, but she sounds like she definitely is. :( Part of me wishes I lived back home just to see her weekly like I use to. Me, her, and Nick bonded every week. Now I hang with my bestie Tony weekly.

I digress. I miss and love you Heather. Next time I go home I'm coming to visit. xoxo

Oprah interviews Ricky Martin

It's Rrrrrrrrricky MartEEN to be honest LOL My friends and I use to say that. 

But in all seriousness Oprah is the best screenwriter ever. Listen to this. Over the years she's had Ricky on. She was his first interview after he came out. This is how slick she is. She digs up an interview she did with him with Menudo when he was 13 for her show prior to Oprah. On the show he kisses a lil girl and hugs her. Pan back to present show the girl is 30 standing in the audience. WTF?! 

His song with Joss Stone sucked, but he is so much cooler openly gay. UGH I can't date him. Chris will kill me. Plus he gots chillrens. And he is dating someone. He told her he was dating a man back in the day and was going to leave fame behind to be with him. UGH I hate that kinda gay. He'd be all clingy and try to leave his career to be with me. I'd dump his ass after a week.

the one about Robbie

So I had a crush on this guy Robbie. He was a waiter at Fritz a year ago. Tall. Boy next door. Completely gorgeous. Everyone who met Robbie whether tall boy next door was their type thought he was beautiful. He still is (sorry he ain't dead). I'd see him at Club Cafe. He started dating my friend Tyler. Just kinda the hot guy I will always have a crush on ya know?

Well we were online chatting back and forth on Tyler's fb wall and I felt he was being utterly bitchy. At the time I was realizing what Josh was to me which was not a good thing. I think I just thought every gay man was bitchy so I cut things off with Josh and for a period ANY guy I thought was being that way too. My friend Mike, Robbie, and there were others.

As you read previously for Lent I gave up grudges. It truly has changed my life. Really. I now try to say the things you aren't suppose to say to your friends in a tactful way to avoid grudges. Kinda like how I told Ben it was wrong to go on dates with Ed while I was going on dates with Ed. I gave him the chance. He just didn't like me telling him he shouldn't do something. Everything's a pissing contest with him but I digress. So I reached out to Robbie tonight.

"...we're very sarcastic, but it's all meant to be playful and funny. I never intended it to be bitchy! I'm sorry. i actually thought you were nice, never had an issue with you."

Like what a jerk I am. I just apologized. There's no way to defend myself when I didn't ask him. I shoulda said "are you being rude?" Always ask folks never assume. I hate loathe and despise when people I DON'T know say "oh you're in a pissy mood." How the hell would you know if we just met? But yeah I swallowed all pride and apologized. Now I feel bad. :( The "I actually thought you were nice" got me. I know Jen told me nice isn't really a description you wanna be described as, but I love it. Makes me melt when I hear someone call me nice.

So Robbie, I'm sorry. I misunderstood and feel like a complete ass. Forgive me :( schmoosh to make up?

the one about Facebook...FMT

So I have to say people are giving social networks like Facebook and Myspace WAY too much bad press. They talk about how it breaks up marriages and ends friendships. Well guess what THEY ARE WEBSITES! They cannot do any of those things. The people ON them can. Don't blame McDonald's for making you fat, folks. Stop buying the products. I mean WTF?

For me Facebook especially has given me the chance to reconnect with so many people I lost touch with. Family members, friends from HS (Aja!!! Love you), and keep in touch with my friends. I have a faction of friends I do not see for months or years at a time. Not cuz we hate each other but that's life. Doesn't mean our friendship isn't as strong as it first was. Just means we are busy. Facebook has given us a way to catch up. Posting pix. And messaging back and forth. AND truth be told I missed my work wife's wedding in September due to food poisoning (thank you Applebee's Dorchester), and she posted some of her wedding photos there. I mean HELLO that's huge. She gave me the other website but still. STOP BASHING A WEBSITE YOU SIGN INTO!

My favorite thing about Facebook are the acronyms. My friend Mike introduced me to FML which means F*ck My Life. But his cousin Kerry introduced me to her very own FMT lol It means F*ck My Tits Hahaha Is that not hilarious? And she has different variations. When I told her how my ex Ben went on a date with my date Ed (it wasn't an accident Ben SOUGHT Ed out after I was telling him about Ed) she responded "F*ck His Tits" (meaning Ben) then added "actually F*ck Both Their Tits!" hahaha I absolutely love it. For some reason I can't get use to saying it. But I love writing it hahaha FYT We are so trying to make this happen.