So I have this friend that my core group of friends considers toxic. To the point when we hang out we spend at least 30 mins venting about how crazy he is. Now they are venting because he has caused such strife in their lives. It's a safe environment. But one thing they keep telling me is "David, you need to be done with him. He's toxic, self-destructive, and will drag you down." "No no he's changed I promise I wouldn't give him a second chance if he didn't." I'm lying to myself. I give people too many second chances and they don't deserve it.
On that note I realized most people today use the term drama incorrectly. Partly because it adds spice to a conversation to say "Oh this person is causing drama." So what's the difference between drama and a disagreement? Honesty. My roommate and I get into disagreements all the time. He's messy and leaves his dishes in the sink when we have a perfectly running dishwasher. I tell him to put it in there so I can run it. He doesn't. I let it go. Disagreement. Drama is creating a HUGE argument. Posting a facebook status about it. Texting him constantly how he's horrible. And ignoring him cuz of it. DRAMA!
And you get over disagreements. Generally in a disagreement it doesn't matter who's right or wrong. They are petty and you move on. I'm not looking for an apology from my roommate about damn dishes. He eventually puts the dishes in the dishwasher so I let it go and run the damn dishwasher when it's full. So this toxic person. Le sigh. He is KNOWN to cause drama. And I just wonder why? We had a disagreement. I let it go THINKING it was a disagreement but still a tiny bit annoyed. What does he do? Creates drama. Storms off. Texts our mutual friend how he's mad at me. Comes back. Then gets mad cuz I didn't apologize to HIM and then proceeds to text ME saying he doesn't know why I'M mad at him. One thing I feel is a point of no return though is when you swear at me.
I know it's completely childish, but when my friends swear at me joking I accept it. "Dude eff you" or I have a friend who jokingly flips me off. It's hilarious in a Ouisier Boudreaux way. When in the heat of your anger you tell me to "eff off" at that point I check out and you're done. I do not accept that. Sorry. He has done that to my circle of friends in the past too. DO NOT CREATE DRAMA OVER A DISAGREEMENT!
I have this saying "Get out of your own way." Immediately if one of my friends says something hurtful to me I will repeat that to myself. What I do is immediately take an assessment "Do they really mean it hurtfully to me? Have they said the same stuff in the past? Have I brought it up to them how I dislike being talked to/treated like that before? Would I be ok if they are no longer in my life?" If I answer no in my head to one or more of these questions I let it go. I maybe mention it to them "Hey what you said kinda hurt (insert sad face)" and we talk about it. But I do not end a friendship over a disagreement. With HIM every disagreement is a friendship ending moment. I cannot take that. And more importantly I do not have to.
I've driven him to the hospital, visited him in the hospital, stood up for him when people actually were trashing him, been his taxi MANY times, and my favorite opened my wallet when I knew I didn't have the cash. To be talked down to or mistreated by this person is in my mind completely unacceptable.
Folks the moral of the story is we are human. We are not perfect. Know that we will get into arguments with our best friends and it's not going to be pretty. The thing you need to remember is again there are Disagreements and there is Drama. Don't mix the two. A disagreement should NEVER lead into drama. If I were Hermione Granger I would perform the obliteration charm to erase the sense of urgency people turn disagreements into drama from people's brain.
The Next Three Days
My friend Tom and I got to see a free screening of Russell Crowe's "The Next Three Days" co-starring Elizabeth Banks. She plays a woman accused of murder. He is her teacher husband and father to her son. With no other option since the case against her is air-tight he decides to break her out of prison and take her and their son on the run. He has formed a plan to do so in...."The Next Three Days" hence the title.
Some parts of it were unbelieveable, but it was a good popcorn movie. The fact that it was written and directed by Paul Haggis (the genius writer/director behind "Crash" and writer of Million Dollar Baby") made me wanna see it. The ending was one of those "WTF" moments. I won't spoil it but overall I'd give it a B. Being a writer and movie fanatic I love movies that are detail oriented. Upon first viewing I saw they left no stone unturned. Now this doesn't mean should I see it again I am like COME ON. (although one moment was a COME ON moment. It was just a lil too much. My friend and I turned to each other and was like SERIOUSLY?! And I guarantee you will know what I mean when you see it). The weirdest part was I was like "ok how are they gonna end it." And among all the chaos and subpar unbelievability they ended it so smartly! It was like Paul Haggis wrapped up the ending himself.
Anyways go see it. You won't regret :)
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part 1
My first midnight premiere movie. I got home at 4am!
The movie was entertaining. Being that I never read the books I only follow the movies I can appreciate it. The only thing over-the-top was the audience. Ok seriously when a funny part presented itself people were laughing like it was "Wedding Crashers 2" and when it was sad people were crying like it was "Titanic: the sequel." But I must say my favorite was the "dark" scenes. People were SCREAMING and JUMPING like we were viewing "Halloween" for the first time. I WISH I WERE KIDDING! It was a mess. I wish I went with a less animated crowd.
But the story itself was good. I got a tiny bit confused and had to ask my squirrelfriend after a plot point, but overall good. I'm strangely attracted to the tall ginger twins. RIGHT?! They are goofy and have always had the best lines in the movies. But I must say my favorite is Luna Lovegood. She reminds me of Anna Faris from "Scary Movie" franchise.
Luna: Come on dad. Harry wants us to leave he's just too polite to tell us.
She delivers this with a smile on her face and dippy look. LOVE IT! LOVE IT! LOVE IT! I want to be her. I found her to be my fave. I wish to meet someone like that in my personal life or maybe I will become that. I swear loved it.
But I will def see the next one...just not at midnight hahaha
JEM
It has finally happened. I submitted my idea! HAHA Seems like this year is the year of listening to my friends! When they suggested I create a blog I did. And they've always suggested I submit my movie ideas to a studio...and I did!
Amazon.com has partnered up with Warner Brothers Studio to create Amazon Studios. Amazon Studios is a production company that will take submitted scripts to Warner Brothers, produce them, and distribute them as "First Look" through Warner Brothers. Should Warner Brothers pass the writer and Amazon may go to another studio. I submitted my first of three screenplays for JEM. Why? Many reasons.
- Jem is exactly what the public needs. A female-driven movie about two battling girl rock bands set against Hollywood, fashion, and music. GOLD MINE!!!!!!!!
- No sex. Very little violence. HUGE cult following.
- There were three seasons so there should be three movies.
- Cheap to produce. The most expensive part will be very little special effects and wardrobe.
- The fans of Jem want movies made.
So cross your fingers and wish me luck. And when you have a chance go read my first submission!
Cont'd...here's the kicker. You know that in life we need signs to know something might happen? Well in September I won second place in a JEM fan fiction writing contest. One of the writers from the series was a judge and said it was tough deciding if mine and another's was the winner. Well today I got a package from JemCon! I registered with Amazon Studios last night and today I get my winner's package. Come on that's a clear sign! Just thought I'd share.
Rihanna
What the hell is this chi doing? Lemme say first that I love love love RiRi's music. "Rude Boy" started it then "Only Girl (In the World)" now "What's My Name?" featuring yummy Drake. This chick has got me hooked on songs I listen to OVER and OVER and OVER! And she is the chorus girl of choice in the rap industry. FOR CEREAL!
But it wasn't so long ago she was in dire straits. Lemme rewind. A lot of people do not recall this. Remember Britney Spears MTV Music Awards debacle performing "Gimme More?" Well as Brit-Brit was performing the camera panned to Rihanna and she was LAUGHING! Yup go on YouTube you will see a clip of Rihanna LAUGHING at Britney. No someone didn't tell a joke. The camera came up to Rihanna. Held a pause and Rihanna looked at Britney and laughed. It was in that moment her fate was sealed.
I'm by no means saying Rihanna got what she deserved. NO ONE should EVER hit another human being. But when you mock someone else when they are down and do it publicly Karma has a way of making you appreciate rock bottom. What's even worse? Some people I've talked to have said "Oh Rihanna probably provoked Chris. I mean girls know how to make men mad till they snap." HOMO SAY WHAT? We are taught as children to fight with your words and not take what's yours. Chris CLEARLY didn't learn anything from childhood now his career is in the toy toy and she's on top...for her music.
For me when I saw her laughing I was disgusted with Rihanna as a person and an artist. I screamed at my TV "That could be you! Don't laugh!" I was really upset with Rihanna. Stopped listening to "Good Girl Gone Bad" for awhile even. I didn't even listen to "Rude Boy" till it was out for a good six months. And even then I love the song, wrong artist. I asked myself "Why is she singing about a rude boy when she had one and got rid of him?" Didn't fit the artist.
Now I dunno what the hell she's doing. She looks like an Olsen twin with her hobo chic...but it's the bad version. I don't get it. I want her to go back to Glamorous RiRi. Good Girl Gone Bad RiRi. That girl was beautiful. And is it me or does her voice SOAR in "Only Girl (In the World)?" It sounds like she took singing lessons or something. At first listen I kinda thought it was Beyonce. But it's like part two of "Don't Stop the Music"...like a club remix released as an original. LOVE LOVE IT! And "What's My Name?" sounds like part two of "Rude Boy" Just amazing.
Well I will have a listen to the entire album. I just hope she finds herself and soon!
WBut it wasn't so long ago she was in dire straits. Lemme rewind. A lot of people do not recall this. Remember Britney Spears MTV Music Awards debacle performing "Gimme More?" Well as Brit-Brit was performing the camera panned to Rihanna and she was LAUGHING! Yup go on YouTube you will see a clip of Rihanna LAUGHING at Britney. No someone didn't tell a joke. The camera came up to Rihanna. Held a pause and Rihanna looked at Britney and laughed. It was in that moment her fate was sealed.
I'm by no means saying Rihanna got what she deserved. NO ONE should EVER hit another human being. But when you mock someone else when they are down and do it publicly Karma has a way of making you appreciate rock bottom. What's even worse? Some people I've talked to have said "Oh Rihanna probably provoked Chris. I mean girls know how to make men mad till they snap." HOMO SAY WHAT? We are taught as children to fight with your words and not take what's yours. Chris CLEARLY didn't learn anything from childhood now his career is in the toy toy and she's on top...for her music.
For me when I saw her laughing I was disgusted with Rihanna as a person and an artist. I screamed at my TV "That could be you! Don't laugh!" I was really upset with Rihanna. Stopped listening to "Good Girl Gone Bad" for awhile even. I didn't even listen to "Rude Boy" till it was out for a good six months. And even then I love the song, wrong artist. I asked myself "Why is she singing about a rude boy when she had one and got rid of him?" Didn't fit the artist.
Now I dunno what the hell she's doing. She looks like an Olsen twin with her hobo chic...but it's the bad version. I don't get it. I want her to go back to Glamorous RiRi. Good Girl Gone Bad RiRi. That girl was beautiful. And is it me or does her voice SOAR in "Only Girl (In the World)?" It sounds like she took singing lessons or something. At first listen I kinda thought it was Beyonce. But it's like part two of "Don't Stop the Music"...like a club remix released as an original. LOVE LOVE IT! And "What's My Name?" sounds like part two of "Rude Boy" Just amazing.
Well I will have a listen to the entire album. I just hope she finds herself and soon!
the one about Tom
So I am so annoyed right now. There's this guy Tom I've been online friends with for over ten years. We've even chatted on the phone. He's besties with my friend JP. Tom and I flirt hardcore. Sure there's naughty stuff involved but it's always been flirtatious.
This week he tells me he's in Boston area. I say great and he says he wants to meet. I say great and proceed our normal flirting and he just changes his tune. I literally thought someone got ahold of his phone and texted me. Well me being me I let it go. Today I ripped him a new one. I told him he's pulling a str8 guy move where something is fine and good till reality hits. Basically it was okay for us to flirt from a distance. The minute he was close enough he freaked out. I told him he needs to apologize. He didn't. So I gave him one word answers. THEN he has the chutzpah (I'm no longer Christian I'm Jewish by language) to say "Well we should still meet up." Why? He's moving to Boston area and needs a friend.
H to the E to the double hockey sticks no! If I don't get an apology I'm not moving forward. And if we meet he will get the cold shoulder. I don't do well with wishy-washy Ed type of people anymore. I got no tolerance. And I have people in my life (Kelly, Chuck, and Jen B to name a few) that love me the way I am and would love to fill up my free time chatting than to hang out with schmucks!
We shall see. (folds arms)
This week he tells me he's in Boston area. I say great and he says he wants to meet. I say great and proceed our normal flirting and he just changes his tune. I literally thought someone got ahold of his phone and texted me. Well me being me I let it go. Today I ripped him a new one. I told him he's pulling a str8 guy move where something is fine and good till reality hits. Basically it was okay for us to flirt from a distance. The minute he was close enough he freaked out. I told him he needs to apologize. He didn't. So I gave him one word answers. THEN he has the chutzpah (I'm no longer Christian I'm Jewish by language) to say "Well we should still meet up." Why? He's moving to Boston area and needs a friend.
H to the E to the double hockey sticks no! If I don't get an apology I'm not moving forward. And if we meet he will get the cold shoulder. I don't do well with wishy-washy Ed type of people anymore. I got no tolerance. And I have people in my life (Kelly, Chuck, and Jen B to name a few) that love me the way I am and would love to fill up my free time chatting than to hang out with schmucks!
We shall see. (folds arms)
the one about exes...again
So Ed is NOT the same Ed I went on dates with. He was all "Oh well I don't want stress or pressure in my life" when I told him if he wants to be friends in the true sense of the word then we should hang out as friends. So his rebuttal "then maybe we should be acquaintances." I was like "You know what I didn't realize hanging out as friends was strenuous, but if you wanna chat you can contact me on facebook" I'm done playing games with guys old enough to know better. He's a 33 year old lawyer. Why the games? Maybe him and Ben ARE suited for each other!!!! Ugh got no time.
I'm not discussing Ben at depth. He's manipulative and just not a nice person deep down to his core. He's pompous egotistical and I've given him WAY too many chances only to be burned as a friend AND dating. I was in the shower the other day thinking why I have given him so many chances. The best I could come up with is I had hope. Hope he was a good person. Hope he took what feedback I gave him previously and used it. But more importantly hope that I made a difference in his life. But no. He reminds me alot of Josh. Very much thinks he's right about everything and he cannot be wrong.
Speaking of Josh haven't talked to him. The last time we hung out he was way too judgmental and just bitchy. I did not feel comfortable when he was making fun of me putting ketchup on the exact same sandwich he got, and I won't be calling him. He's definitely physically what I like, but personality wise not my type at all. And the thing is he doesn't get it. He never will. He thinks he's right about everything and there's no challenging him. Fine I won't challenge him...I'll just avoid him. And that's exactly what I've been doing. The best part was when he said "Geesh you're being so judgmental of other people." And right after he judges me. What I realized when I got home was a few things:
Then Bruce. He randomly contacted me a couple weeks ago and so we've been in minimal contact since. Part of me wants to get back with him and show him all that he missed out on and part of me wants nothing to do with him romantically. Not sure which part is stronger. Well right now actually the nothing to do with is stronger. I had a great date last sunday with Dave. He's one of those guys you meet in a crowded room and ask "Why are you single?" He's just sooooooo nice. Sooooo cute. And just boyfriend/husband material. SERIOUSLY! So we are going on our second date Sunday. I really like spending time with him. I kept yacking at the mouth and he didn't even mind haha That alone makes him a keeper hehe
Ugh why is Bruce creeping back into my head? I almost feel like things are unfinished with him. Ok if I'm thinking things out he was a jerk ONCE to me but it was a really big jerk move. He's apologized for it since but hasn't truly 100% made up for it in a sweeping gesture. I need that gesture to know he's truly sorry. If I see that gesture then I will know if he deserves a second chance even to be true friends or not. THERE I talked it out.
I'm not discussing Ben at depth. He's manipulative and just not a nice person deep down to his core. He's pompous egotistical and I've given him WAY too many chances only to be burned as a friend AND dating. I was in the shower the other day thinking why I have given him so many chances. The best I could come up with is I had hope. Hope he was a good person. Hope he took what feedback I gave him previously and used it. But more importantly hope that I made a difference in his life. But no. He reminds me alot of Josh. Very much thinks he's right about everything and he cannot be wrong.
Speaking of Josh haven't talked to him. The last time we hung out he was way too judgmental and just bitchy. I did not feel comfortable when he was making fun of me putting ketchup on the exact same sandwich he got, and I won't be calling him. He's definitely physically what I like, but personality wise not my type at all. And the thing is he doesn't get it. He never will. He thinks he's right about everything and there's no challenging him. Fine I won't challenge him...I'll just avoid him. And that's exactly what I've been doing. The best part was when he said "Geesh you're being so judgmental of other people." And right after he judges me. What I realized when I got home was a few things:
- When I judge people around him in particular it was deflecting because I knew he'd be judging me
- He could have judged me right after to try and "teach me" a lesson about judging
Then Bruce. He randomly contacted me a couple weeks ago and so we've been in minimal contact since. Part of me wants to get back with him and show him all that he missed out on and part of me wants nothing to do with him romantically. Not sure which part is stronger. Well right now actually the nothing to do with is stronger. I had a great date last sunday with Dave. He's one of those guys you meet in a crowded room and ask "Why are you single?" He's just sooooooo nice. Sooooo cute. And just boyfriend/husband material. SERIOUSLY! So we are going on our second date Sunday. I really like spending time with him. I kept yacking at the mouth and he didn't even mind haha That alone makes him a keeper hehe
Ugh why is Bruce creeping back into my head? I almost feel like things are unfinished with him. Ok if I'm thinking things out he was a jerk ONCE to me but it was a really big jerk move. He's apologized for it since but hasn't truly 100% made up for it in a sweeping gesture. I need that gesture to know he's truly sorry. If I see that gesture then I will know if he deserves a second chance even to be true friends or not. THERE I talked it out.
Marie Osmond on Oprah
At first I was thinking she was acting. The woman has been in show business for 48 years. She went in and out of laughter, tears, and normal conversation. Then I realized no. She isn't acting.
I have people that I know what have lost a child and you DO run that gambit of emotion. My heart broke like eighty times for this woman. What was the worse part?
People online were saying he was gay and that's why he killed himself. Marie lost it not for that rumor but when speaking about how the kids in September killed themselves over being bullied for being gay. She even said "I want to clear this rumor up because my daughter who is gay took offense to the fact that not all gay people commit suicide."
After this AND her operatic performance I have so much respect for Marie. I didn't realize how beaten up in the press she was. I never had an opinion on her either way. But she never said yes or no to Oprah when asked if she was in an abusive second marriage.
She's a single mom raising now 7 kids (BUT she has 8 total) and working in show business. I respect her so much more after this show.
the one about Ed
So I decided to contact Ed. I woke up today and watched Brothers & Sisters. Kevin and Scotty are fighting because Scotty cheated. Scotty said to Kevin "You know talking about a problem is better than icing it out." For some reason I thought only about Ed.
We clicked. He's a great guy. He's an ACTUAL nice guy. Not a nice guy pretending. He called when he said he would. He would show up when he said he would. But we are both very stubborn people. I need more of that in my life. Good people ya know?
Well I have no clue what he'll say or do. I should learn to expect the unexpected from people. Ok well off to finish B&S before work. Today's my Friday. Tomorrow I have off and I'm only working like 4 hours Friday. :D
We clicked. He's a great guy. He's an ACTUAL nice guy. Not a nice guy pretending. He called when he said he would. He would show up when he said he would. But we are both very stubborn people. I need more of that in my life. Good people ya know?
Well I have no clue what he'll say or do. I should learn to expect the unexpected from people. Ok well off to finish B&S before work. Today's my Friday. Tomorrow I have off and I'm only working like 4 hours Friday. :D
Glee: Never Been Kissed
I will be the first to admit (and you can ask ANY of my friends) I loathed and despised Glee. I dubbed it the white version of "Fame"...I refused to watch it the first season.
Then I heard Ryan Murphy (creator of my fave canceled show "Nip/Tuck") created/wrote/directed it. My curiosity piqued. When Jane Lynch won an Emmy for Best Supporting Actress I said "Ok I need to find out the big deal."
I began watching it episode 1 Season 2. The Britney episode was good. The "Grilled Cheesus" episode was my fave. I love when a show can literally talk to me. That episode let me know it was okay to be spiritual about God and believe it Him.
Tonight's episode is called "Never Been Kissed." It's about Kurt (he's the middle bottom guy) being the ONLY one in school openly gay and being picked on. He goes to a rival school where being gay isn't a stigma. CLEARLY this spoke to me. It was like Ryan Murphy KNEW my life.
Kurt was being picked on but more specifically the teachers weren't helping. And the one thing one openly gay kid at the rival school said that got me was "You have two options. Stand up for yourself or run." Did they read my damn blog about high school? LOL For real.
I am now a Gleek and proud of it. I eat my words and love love love this show.
Ps. One of the commercials the title was 'being tracked by your cell phone'...a guy with HUGE gauges in his ears goes "It's creepy." Ironic.
Then I heard Ryan Murphy (creator of my fave canceled show "Nip/Tuck") created/wrote/directed it. My curiosity piqued. When Jane Lynch won an Emmy for Best Supporting Actress I said "Ok I need to find out the big deal."
I began watching it episode 1 Season 2. The Britney episode was good. The "Grilled Cheesus" episode was my fave. I love when a show can literally talk to me. That episode let me know it was okay to be spiritual about God and believe it Him.
Tonight's episode is called "Never Been Kissed." It's about Kurt (he's the middle bottom guy) being the ONLY one in school openly gay and being picked on. He goes to a rival school where being gay isn't a stigma. CLEARLY this spoke to me. It was like Ryan Murphy KNEW my life.
Kurt was being picked on but more specifically the teachers weren't helping. And the one thing one openly gay kid at the rival school said that got me was "You have two options. Stand up for yourself or run." Did they read my damn blog about high school? LOL For real.
I am now a Gleek and proud of it. I eat my words and love love love this show.
Ps. One of the commercials the title was 'being tracked by your cell phone'...a guy with HUGE gauges in his ears goes "It's creepy." Ironic.
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